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♔ Friday, September 17, 2010
4:04 AM |
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Alone in the crowd.
“I hate the crowd. But at the same time, I adore it too. I envy everyone that is a part of it.
At this place on Earth, it seems like everyone’s included. But are they? Or everyone is just pretending to be. This feeling of jealousy, I don’t even know who it is aiming at. To everyone? Or maybe no one. Everything seems so fake, so pale just like it’s fading. Every movements, every sounds, every emotions are happening, it is just floating around me, curved and then turned. It feels like waves flowing past me but never actually touch me. I’m yearning for the rush of those embraces. Even it’s nowhere near me, I can see it, I can hear it, I can feel the presence of it,
but it seems so far away that I can’t touch it although I’ve tried my best.
But it’s funny how I once belonged to the crowd. Everyone used to be so envious of me, the perfect girl. Everything was perfect, just simply is, although it’s just the outside. It broke slowly as I try to climb higher. In the end, I fell deeply without a hand reach out to pull me up. Night and day, whenever I stare at the mirror, all I can see is this sad, very sad girl. She is lost with no way out. But she doesn’t even want to get out, what if she falls again?
This darkness feels nice enough even though I’m trapped and blocked to the world.
All I can do now is laugh at her, the girl in the mirror, she’s a fool. I hate her.”
From one of my old English assignments, somehow I can relate.
by the way, this must be really fobby because I wrote it last year, hahas.
Labels: grey days, random thoughts
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141194-which makes me a scorpio, currently trapped in a little place called Adelaide.
I have scary dreams and Deja Vu haunts me. I may be here and might be there. I'm complicated but also simple.
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